My life has never been a cakewalk. In my primary school days I was a topper..in my highschool days because of different reasons I became an average student if acadeic excellence is the parameter of a person's success. After highschool in my pre degree days I became a topper again only to falter in the final hurdle where I gained fourth rank in my college. I came back strongly to secure second rank in graduation. Only to get another average score in my post graduate correspondence course. As you can clearly see I have had a rollercoaster life in terms of success...people around me have always seen me as an idealist and a person with immense potential. But everyone failed to recognise a free spirit within me except my parents and a dear friend. The behaviour of many people around me hurt me deeply and during my low phase I closed down my social window and stopped interacting with anyone who reminded me of negative thinking.
Then I started succeeding again in my typical style...coming back from failures and having a successful streak. This time everything seemed so good that everyone wanted to talk to me and know my future plans. Finally clearing career oriented exams gave me a confidence that I can do anything. People wanted to know when I will get my promotion...in how many years..etc. There I realised again that people measure your success in terms of money and not in terms of your ability to overcome challenges. Then I went on a lone biker journey to Goa to visit old temples and connect myself to my routes. People around me were not satisfied. Some called me a fool and some questioned the very basis of travelling alone. This gave me a realization that there are only a few souls in this world that understand me and I must only concentrate on what they feel and not what others feel. So after eight months of my goan bike trip I went on my second biker trip. This time to Chennai.
The trip was not a joy ride or a journey to connect with my roots. Neither was this trip made to prove a point to anyone. This was a trip to test my ability..to travel alone long distances...driving alone in the heat,dust,cold reaching my destination. This was a test of my character. Unveiling my ability to do anything my heart wants.
I informed no one in Chennai that I was coming in bike. I took a journey of thirteen hours with five short breaks beating the heat,dust and madness of the highway. Once I reached there I met some important friends and well wishers that I had planned and everyone was in awe of the new me. No one had in their wildest dream had thought I ll drive that long a distance within a day and come to Chennai. No one before had seen this side of my personality and the ones who saw have now seen a different person. The return journey took less time and I came back in 11 and half hours.
I came back like a soldier who had conquered his enemies. I had conquered my own enemies. As my bike's name is avenger...I had avenged my enemies..by conquering my own insecurities. This journey is just a beginning. Yet it will always remain as the one that gave me a purpose in my life.
Now that one week is over since I came back I have witnessed a different personality inside me. A dreamer who will go to any extent to achieve his dreams. Now I have decided that enough is enough..I ll not live someone else's life or dream someone's dream anymore... In career and life I ll do what I want to (not arrogantly) but with a gentle touch of authority.
I shall not let my life be a rollercoaster ride again..I shall live for the sake of my dreams..and lead my life the way I want it to be.
My dear detractors who are plenty in number...thank you. Without your discouragement in every stage of my life and your doubt in my abilities I couldn't have done all this.
I had not planned writing this post. Then I realized, just like I dedicate my success to some people..I need to acknowledge my detractors. Their negativity is the source of my positive energy.
Hope everyone lives happily.
Then I started succeeding again in my typical style...coming back from failures and having a successful streak. This time everything seemed so good that everyone wanted to talk to me and know my future plans. Finally clearing career oriented exams gave me a confidence that I can do anything. People wanted to know when I will get my promotion...in how many years..etc. There I realised again that people measure your success in terms of money and not in terms of your ability to overcome challenges. Then I went on a lone biker journey to Goa to visit old temples and connect myself to my routes. People around me were not satisfied. Some called me a fool and some questioned the very basis of travelling alone. This gave me a realization that there are only a few souls in this world that understand me and I must only concentrate on what they feel and not what others feel. So after eight months of my goan bike trip I went on my second biker trip. This time to Chennai.
The trip was not a joy ride or a journey to connect with my roots. Neither was this trip made to prove a point to anyone. This was a trip to test my ability..to travel alone long distances...driving alone in the heat,dust,cold reaching my destination. This was a test of my character. Unveiling my ability to do anything my heart wants.
I informed no one in Chennai that I was coming in bike. I took a journey of thirteen hours with five short breaks beating the heat,dust and madness of the highway. Once I reached there I met some important friends and well wishers that I had planned and everyone was in awe of the new me. No one had in their wildest dream had thought I ll drive that long a distance within a day and come to Chennai. No one before had seen this side of my personality and the ones who saw have now seen a different person. The return journey took less time and I came back in 11 and half hours.
I came back like a soldier who had conquered his enemies. I had conquered my own enemies. As my bike's name is avenger...I had avenged my enemies..by conquering my own insecurities. This journey is just a beginning. Yet it will always remain as the one that gave me a purpose in my life.
Now that one week is over since I came back I have witnessed a different personality inside me. A dreamer who will go to any extent to achieve his dreams. Now I have decided that enough is enough..I ll not live someone else's life or dream someone's dream anymore... In career and life I ll do what I want to (not arrogantly) but with a gentle touch of authority.
I shall not let my life be a rollercoaster ride again..I shall live for the sake of my dreams..and lead my life the way I want it to be.
My dear detractors who are plenty in number...thank you. Without your discouragement in every stage of my life and your doubt in my abilities I couldn't have done all this.
I had not planned writing this post. Then I realized, just like I dedicate my success to some people..I need to acknowledge my detractors. Their negativity is the source of my positive energy.
Hope everyone lives happily.
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